In the devastation of early grief, it shrouds our life and shatters the normalcy of all we knew. I remember that time so well. How could emotional pain be so crippling and devastating?
No matter how happy I am now or what I am doing in my life, that memory is within me. It comes to me sometimes frequently, sometimes when I read the words off a page, as I did this week.
As I read them I could so relate. It was my grief she was describing. That terrible fog where my brain wouldn’t work and my head was heavy with lead.
“Sadness is a hive at the back of his head…….” – Lauren Groff
That was it, like a drone of bees in my head…….perfect.
It will be there, our loss. Noticing. Influencing. Changing. Guiding. It might not hurt in the way it once did bit it will forever stay as a great marker for us and how we view the world.