For the past two years I have given my heart and soul to grief. But not to that alone. I have reached out and given hope, encouragement and understanding to many thousands both at Esdeer and on my Facebook page Stepping through Grief. I have laughed with you and cried with you and shared your journeys back to a vastly new and different life after loss. I have felt blessed by the connections with you and humbled by your courage and your great love.
Six years ago as I grappled with my own very deep pain following the death of my son the idea for Esdeer came into being. My conviction then was to “make a difference” to those who were grieving, to use my own experiences of grief to help others. I believe now as I write this that I have done just that. From the emails and notes I receive from you I have made a powerful difference and even have saved lives – what an honor it has been. It has also been a deep commitment of time, resources and self.
I now am finding this self of mine is wanting to take me in other directions. With my writing I have touched into a deep creative part of myself and it’s something I’d like to explore, perhaps in different ways, along with other personal endeavours in the coming months.
And so it is that at the end of October I will be winding up Stepping through Grief on Facebook and my Twitter feed @Esdeer. I know this will be deeply disappointing for many as you have come to see it as a wonderfully safe and understanding place to be. I will be sharing some resources with you in the coming weeks that will provide you with stepping stones to other supportive places.
As for this website Esdeer I really am unsure of what direction it will take. But for now, it will remain as is. What have I always shared with you? Moment by moment, one step at a time and so it is with these big changes I am making right now. And they have been BIG. I have pondered over them for many many nights, and they have been incredibly difficult to make.
So thank you for reading and thank you for being a part of and making Esdeer and Stepping through Grief the wonderful place it has been.
All my love to you.